old paper

Tonite, I went through a lot of old paper.

I needed to clean out all my records/files/letters in my file cabinets. The paper had piled up from my fear of being audited by The Feds for my political affiliations, my formerly massive debt, and a desire to keep correspondence that was, at the time, very close to my heart.
It was difficult. I got a lot sadder than I expected. Stupid shit like seeing evidence of when I was unable to pay my bills to concrete evidence of my marriage and its divorce.
Throwing away a lot of that paper was no different than throwing away pieces of my past. I am usually one who holds the past in a stranglehold... but not tonite. Out with the tears, out with the paper, out with the past.